Loving Myself: Breast Massage

A woman’s breasts are a wonderful source of joy.  If you want to love a woman’s body, love her breasts first. If you want to love your own body, love your breasts first.

This is part of a series I’m writing in search of expanding my sexuality towards the vaginal orgasm. These posts can be found in the category ‘Opening the Flower’.

In order to gain sensitivity in my body I have started to re-acknowledge my breasts. I’ve started with this about three weeks ago and have loved my breasts two or three times per week.

I thought that I had a good relationship with my breasts, but I realize now that I’ve been ignoring them. I just take them for granted, they are there and that’s that.

Practical exercise:

  • Massage breasts in a circular motion 100 times in one direction, and 100 times in the other direction. Smile at every turn.
  • Once nipples pop out, gently, and I repeat, gently, grab them between the thumb and index finger and turn them as if you’re turning the volume up and down with a knob. GENTLY. Repeat 100 times on each nipple. Keep smiling!

My experience with it:

I have medium sized breasts…ok..ok..they are on the small-to-medium range. I’m a b cup, they are not too big, but enough to grab.

As I started doing this I realized my breasts are sometimes kind of hard to the touch. They feel swollen and tender, touching them was a bit uncomfortable during the first 30 turns or so. There are also some hard nodules inside  them. I got a bit worried and checked with a doctor, everything is ok, they are just fibrous-type breasts. For some reason smiling at the same time felt a bit forced.

After a while, some kind of tension released and I started feeling rather happy. Smiling came easily then.  Also the nodules started dissipating, kind of like when a muscle releases trigger points. This gave me even more happiness. My nipples started surfacing more often also, they were laying kind of flat, and almost inside my breasts. Touching them was at first kind of painful, so I softly grabbed them in between my fingers and started gently turning around them. The happiness meter increased once more. I could also almost swear that my breasts have grown a bit in size since I started this.

I would recommend every woman to massage her breasts regularly. There have been nights when I’ve not been feeling up to the other exercises in my training (more on that later), so I just dedicate myself to the breast massage.

I also started feeling the connection between my breasts and my vagina. After 200 turns water definitely starts to flow, it is shy water at first, like a flower slightly misted by the morning dew.

 

 

Sexual Training 2016

I haven’t yet had an orgasm with a man, not even a vaginal orgasm through stimulation. I plan to write a series of posts in relation to this topic. I am doing extensive research on the matter (both intellectual and experimental), and I want to make it available and accessible to other women who might experience a similar situation. So, join me on my quest for the vaginal orgasm.

So, my new year’s resolution is this: how can I, as a woman, learn to take my pleasure from sexual relationships with any healthy man, regardless of how much experience or know-how he might have?

This is the beginning of a sexual exploration on my part. I recently had a lover who reminded me of my sexual-sensual nature. He woke me up out of a stupor, the brief relationship didn’t work out, but I’m grateful that it happened. It was the best sex I’ve ever had in my life, he is all power and energy. He’s also quite experienced and really took the lead. I learned a lot from him in the few weeks that we were together. I still didn’t reach orgasm with him, but I enjoyed his body so much. More than anything I enjoyed MY body so much. I was already enjoying my sensuality before it all happened. I attracted him as I was being sensual with myself. So, even though it is over with him, I know that this potential is in me.

So far, I’ve been waiting for a man who knows how to DO IT RIGHT. There are very few men who really know about women, sex, or even their own body. But, what about learning how I, myself, can do it right?

The truth is that for years I have had a lot of trouble enjoying sexual relationships. At some point it even became some kind of torture as I was in a very loving relationship and I forced myself to have sex with him even though I didn’t want to. It’s painful to even think about it, I hurt us both in the end more than I helped us.  I have made a lot of excuses for it. I have for a long time thought that ‘there is something wrong with me’; or my body just can’t enjoy sex, or that my vagina is insensitive, or men are just clumsy, or my belly aches, my head aches, etc… While all these reasons might have some truth to them, they end now. I am taking matters into my own hands.

Here something I wrote about understanding my own femininity:

‘I am a woman.

Being a woman is about a cycle of water, ever changing currents of water that shape my day to day life.  It´s a physical cycle that starts and ends in blood every month, blood as the physical representation of the water of life that keeps me alive. First, it’s a physical cycle that carries with it the possibility of harboring life, and the ever present reminder of the bloody death of potential. ‘

This is a part of a previous post- click here to read the whole post.